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last entry

2007-10-09T09:36:00.000-07:00

this will be my last entry of this blog. let everything ends here.

2 years and 21 days of loved and being loved.

17-06-05 till 07-07-07

dun hurt me anymore i beg you.

this will be my last cry for you.

Pls let me go.

-end- 10-10-07

the unique smell of yours

2007-09-10T10:09:00.000-07:00

todae, on my way to class, i smell a very fimilar scent. recalling back, it belongs to you. i quickly turn my head back but at the very moment i know it was not you. i remember back in our days, i told ya b4 i smell someone like you in the MRT. U juz laugh. now thinking back was all memories. i miss your smell. the smell of you lingers in my mind. i realli missed. how i wish i could turned back time. No point for now. i know.

the unique smell of yours lingers in my mind.

what can i do?

pissed off!

2007-08-30T16:11:00.000-07:00

family relationship has turn sour. i already did my part. not to involve in quarrels. But dun be a bastard. We'll see whu will win.

computer reformat. lost all my pics taken during this 2 years. FUCK. it's realli all gone now.

after 1 week

2007-07-13T20:39:00.000-07:00

i suddenly thinking of one song sang by stella huang xiang yi. she's a singer from sinagpore.

分手第七天

Hen xiang zhi dao ni zui jin guo de zen yang
Shi fou hai xiang yi wang
Bu duo hua
Hen xiang bo tong dian hua
Wen ni hao ma
Que pa ting ni sheng yin hui geng shang

Fen shou di qi tian
Jiu xiang yong yuan
Dui ni de si nian
Yi tian jia duo yi dian
Fen shou di qi tian
Jiu xiang yong yuan
Mei dang bi shang shuang yan
Ni jiu zai wo yan qian
Ni jiu zai yan qian

Hen xiang wo ni de shou
Cong xin lai guo
Que zhi bu ke neng de shi tai duo
Fen shou you shi bu shi wei le shui cuo
Zhi neng mo mo jie shou zhe xin tong

Fen shou di qi tian
Jiu xiang yong yuan
Dui ni de si nian
Yi tian jia duo yi dian
Fen shou di qi tian
Jiu xiang yong yuan
Mei dang bi shang shuang yan
Ni jiu zai wo yan qian
Ni jiu zai yan qian

Fen shou di qi tian
Jiu xiang yong yuan
Dui ni de si nian
Yi tian jia duo yi dian
Fen shou di qi tian
Jiu xiang yong yuan
Mei dang bi shang shuang yan
Ni jiu zai wo yan qian
Ni jiu zai yan qian

was hard for mi. real hard. i'll plunge myself into work and studies now. nothing more.

god tells mi everything happens for a reason. there's some purpose behind it i think. i'll do anything to push myself thru.

time will heal.

2007-07-09T07:45:00.000-07:00

i couldnt concentrate on my work at all. i stare blank for quite a number of times. i feel that i'm aimless now.

will i able to see the sunrise with ya again?

saddist cant live his life to the fullest.

2007-07-08T01:47:00.000-07:00

the moment i think of you again. i juz got a very lost feeling.

hundreds of people got married on this very special day. 07-07-2007. but this is the worst day of my life. i lost ya.

i got no one to share my happiness with. these 3 days. was so hard for mi. i've been crying early in the moring. wee hours at nite. i juz cant get u out of my mind. every minutes i'm thinking of you. i dunno if i should let you go. i feel wasted that our 2 year r/s is juz gone. u are my first lady.

u promised mi u would not say break up. whu ask for the break up will be a doggy. i told you i'll not be the one leaving you. but u leave mi. u didnt take mi with you. i feel so lonely now. the emptiness that i feel, couldnt be explained. it hurts gal.i regretted to be so busy. but my intention was to earn money for us. so that we could go out without worrries. but i didnt know that actually causes mi to lose ya.

how am i gonna moved on? i'm so heartbroken. so disappointed.

i'm so scared.

i really missed ya. biyun.

i dunwan any good byes.

in my next life, if there's one more chance for mi. i'll still chose ya to be my wife. i wan to live with ya. i wan to marry you. have our own kids. be ur florist boss. reading books while tending the stall. all i wan is juz to be with you.

the break up e mail on 07-07-07

2007-07-07T02:25:00.000-07:00

this is the email that she sent to mi asking for a break up.

becca,
i noe that our relationship have been fading all the while. i had loved u, but now, i think i treat u more like a good friend.

u noe? when i have good news to share, my first thought is not u anymore. It's my friends in school; my classmates and my council friends. When i'm in trouble i look for them too mostly. My priorities have changed. And that is y u're actually not invloved in my life anymore. And we seldom communicate. we dun realli sms, nor msn. We're busy with our own schedule. Take today for example, i din noe u had a gathering and u din noe i had a gathering. and we wouldn't have known if u hadn't come and fetch me.

and we seldom c each other. in the past, going out with u was always fun. but since i stepped into jj, u had complains. i had to adapt to the changes and so u have to too. i noe u sorted that out already. but da subsequence meetings, u dun look quite happy. and when u're not happy, i'm not too. so it slowly become bored. and u couldn't acc me to study. i understand that tat's y i had to study with my frenx, taking up da time to meet u, to go out and have fun. i noe i'm busy, u noe i'm busy but i tried to fork out time for u. and apparently sometimes i really couldn't. and i'm sorry for that and thank you for ya understanding.

but becox of this, we rarely ever meet, i dunno wad u're doing everyday. and my frenx, who are with me almost everyday, are the ones who knows wad i do everyday.

So i realise that actually instead of having lover, i need frenx more. frenx who are always by my side and not a lover whom i dun c most of time.

u noe how my this group of frenx reallli touched my heart?? my classmates will help me take down the hw and tell me wad i have to do whenever i miss lessons. den everytime dey will be the one tat buy stuff and share with others. den print things for me without wanting any money from me all these. den i think v sweet, cox they at disadvantage but they dun mind one. den when i have to do things cand cant eat, dey will ask me if i wan eat anythin and den buy for me. den dey are also a very funny bunch of pple. it's these little little things that dey do for me tat i dun feel left out in the class though i may not be with the class all the time. these are realli precious frenx to me.

den my council mates. i realli realli have fun with this group of council mates. they may not be as sweet as my classmates. but this group is always fun and i enjoy being with them. i have this v good fren in council, he was from my og, den we went to council together. though council had my sec school frenx, but we were closer. he's a very nice guy. like my classmates, i go to him when i have good news or bad news and he will always be dere listening. den he also will tell me things so i also listen. he also treat me very good and i also very appreciate him as a good fren. and we're realli good frenx.

i have all these pple around me tat made me feel realli welcomed and loved by all of them. i'm not trying to say tat u dun make me feel welcomed or loved nor that u're not impt. i just wan to tell u tat i need frenx who are always around me and i have these great pple around me in jj.

but da thing is, i haven realli open up to anybody. meaning i dun have realli close frenx like wenjing and angelina cox i'm always in groups when i hang out in class and when in council. things tat are more personally i keep to myself and problems regarding tat i keep to myself too. so i still feel lonely at times, especially since my cliche is a five man cliche.

it's not tat i dun need u anymore. i noe that u still love me and i realli appreciates tat. i still need u but as a good fren tat will always be by my side. is it possible?? da decision lies in ur hands whether to accepy me a ur fren or not.

i realli hope that we can still be friends even if we're not a couple as i realli like u alot.

Thanx for all the things u've done for me in the past. u're realli appreciated. =)

biyun

if i had another chance. i still wans to be your lover again. i cant affort to lose you. this feeling of losing you is terrible. i feel lke dieing. i wan to jump off my building ytd nite. i cried badly. no one to share my problems with mi.

you are selfish. when u needed me most. i was there for you. but i needed you most. u wasnt there for mi. u got new clicks of frends. but i lost every single one of them when i always spends my time with you. i lose them. ended up, i got no one to tok to in the middle of the nite. no one know how sad i am. my heart realli aches. the pain was sharp. it juz stab right into my heart. i dunno how long do i need time to heal. i dunno how am i gonna live on. i dunno. tell mi. i need help. i need some help. i need counciling. i need someone to tok to mi. so i'm back to the old self. blogging again. that's what i can do.

gal. i really love ya. but u broke my heart. u turn ur back on mi. but i'll be waiting for you. coz i love ya. i need ya. and i miss ya. HUGS* give mi another chance to woo you back. i'll be right back for you when the time is ripe.

glad you have move on. really. it's been long time i never see you getting happy in ur life. if you are happy with wat ya have. i'll respect your decision. i'll leave sliently. i wun bothered about you nor anithing. no commitment. all i juz need is to be with you.

take good care of yaself when i'm not around animore. get along with ya family. dun let ur temper get over them. dun take ur mum ur sis for granted. treat them well. dun get bully by your frends. you always get sick often. see doctor if need. dun save the money. be good to ur daddy. no matter wat although he didnt did his part as ur father. let him regret. in ur heart u know u did ur part. you are going overseas soon. take good care. beware of robber and cheaters. dun get lost. if ya got finacial difficult. u can always look for mi. i'll be here for you whenever i can help.

it's been a great journey this 2 years. thanx for every happy moment. and i'll remember you forever.

I LOVE YOU BIYUN.

2 weeks cool down period.

2007-06-28T06:27:00.000-07:00

we both are facing the same problem. time management. :( sigh. we are separating for 2 weeks. that wat's she needs to think thru whether we should cont to go on. i feel that she no longer love mi. i have a talk with her ytd. she didnt even give mi her 100% attention. i'm sad. so sad. the worst part is she say that i'm no longer involved in her life. when she tell mi this. i couldnt sleep for the nite. i cried. my tears kept falling. i cant control it at all!!! my heart aches. it realli does. i know the feeling of losing my loved! i realised how difficult for mi to let go of you. this 2 years, time shows my love for ya. i know i cant give u as much as u demand, but i've tried my best to accomdate watever u wan, watever u need. our path leads to different ways and different destination. we got no more aims for us to aim together.

At first when we started on the day of 17/06/05, everyone dosent approve as at first.but i've proved them wrong 2 years! but this is not the important point. i wan to be together with ya is not to proved them wrong. but to proved my love for you. we got no 3rd parties to involved. so i've been faithful all these while. Not even once i've been out of track. coz i've been loving you deeply this 2 years. but what have i gotten now? happy memories? ya. i do treasure our memories. all the sad and happy ones. but i wan more of it. i've been missing ya since u have been busy in jc. u realli got no time for mi. u rather to go out with ya frends. not mi. i wanted to share happy times with u. but u rejected again and again. i feel disappointed. but ALL of this i can accept. i dun mind! coz i realli cant imagine my life without you. a horrible life will be rite ahead waiting for mi to explore on my own. i dunno if i can handle it on my own. i need u to share with mi. i need u.. i do.

but does this seems late? i hope not. i hope i still have the chance to hold ya hand. hug ya. kisses ya forehead. and not forgetting to take lots of neoprint with ya. i'm afraid i dun feel the warmth from ya animore! i'm scared. i still have a lot to tell you. i wanna share! i need the chance.

this 2 weeks. will be terrible for mi to go thru. i dunno wat ya decision will be in the end. but seriously, i'll wait for you. no matter wat. U are the best GF in the world! if we realli ends here. thanx you for everything. Everything single things. i appreciate it. from the bottom of my heart.

ps: I love you. i missed ya. i need ya.

all i need is one more chance.

do our paths cross actually?

2007-06-07T08:43:00.000-07:00

i've been thinking alot these days. i knew our distance grew further apart. something is not rite. we both know. but somehow both of us are not doing anything bout it. i really feel terrible about it. does she knows wat i'm talking or refering too? i bet she doesnt!!! coz she long thinks that mine blog is dead. this coming 17th june 2007 will be our 2 yr aniversary. cool? i also dunno how we go thru everthing. but i think i'm selfless. i need to be more self centered to protect myself. all along i think i've been giving in too much too her! TOO MUCH!!! she has already from the start climb to my head! i juz need a blog to vent my anger out and i'll feel better... i juz know i dun wanna end this relationship. but i really find no point. i think she got her own life now. her frends, family, studies are all her first piorities! i know i'm the last now. i know. so in order not to sink in any more wat muz i do now? HOW? choice one - continue our relation? choice two - break up and live better?i dun even know will i able to leave her. sigh.

and work sux i really hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11months

2007-05-06T02:04:00.000-07:00

it's been 11 months since the last blog. i'm back because i feel trouble. no one to talk to. somethings are juz very wrong betwee us. i feel our relationship is weaker each day passes. it's gonna be 2 years soon. since the first day we met. 17/6/2005. see!! after you went into jc. u've been very busy. everything u wan to take up. as u wanna be everthing. pls! if cant handle. pls let go one of it. u know wat i mean. U've got SC, BIKILA CAP, CLASS RAP, TEACHER"S PA, BEING A STUDENT, FAMILY and ME!!!! u onli got 7 days a week. which one do u reall wan? u already taken up sat. which is the onli day we'll meet. so one week i meet you 3 hours? and the 3 hours is not fully used! u go library do your work. i sit in front of u and see u do homework. see!! it's been months i've been doing these! YES!!! I"M NOT HAPPY! i feel like u are very self centered! u onli think bout urself. u never think for mi. u onli know u need to finish ur stuff. wat about mi? dun u think i waasting my life away in the library? sigh. u always tell mi how stress are u. and everything. i dread to hear it again and again! and the attiude u give mi is getting from bad to worst! another thing is that when u are free, u think i'm free also! but the problem is i'm not! u expect mi to meet u when u are free? hey come on la. u got ur life and i've got mine! i also got things to do. when i say i cant meet you. u ALWAYS got angry! is a 100% u will get angry! fuk man. when i free do i do that to you too? NO I DUN! and u always take mi for granted! if you do not change for the better. is very diffcult for us to carry on. pls. gal. i dun wan everything to end. i really wanna be with you. i misses ya. i need ya. i love ya.

MY BOSS IS FUK UP! pls go to some anger management classes! dun flare up on mi. one day u'll regret! FUK YOU!

goona be 1 year

2006-06-08T12:44:00.000-07:00

kinda long didnt post.. went thru bdaes of my closest frends! shi followed by sam and noi.. haz.. cant believe they're pn da same day.. 6/6/06.. nice day.. this month on the 15th gonna be important day.. coz my TP.. hehe.. finally waited for this day to come.. hope to pass for once.. den 2 days after passing, my 1 year anniversery... OH YEA!!! time realli flies.. i still remember how i ask my gal on that very day.. we've been thru alot this 1 year.. hopes there'll be lots of 1 year coming for us.. i missed ya! *hugs* hehez. with lotsa love!

*ps: dun be stubborn animore gal.. :) i see improvements in ya temper le.. i know u've been giving in all the while! thanx for everything ya have given to mi! i'll treasure YOU!i SWEAR! :D

finally

2006-04-17T06:18:00.000-07:00

alrite.. came here to update my post.. is kinda long since the last update.. been to attachment programme for 6 weeks.. it's not a veri good experience.. hmz... first day of sch of 3rd year.. 1 more year and i'm ending my poly life.. whee.. but i hate working life la..

bad flu for mi the past 2 daes.. i cant smell and taste at all! todae my mum cook salted fish I CANT SMELL!! omg... i feel like i'm dying soon lo.. i took 8 panadols le.. yet my flu and cough is not getting well!!

first day of sch and i saw the weirdest gal of my life.. and she's same class with mi! omg!! cannot make it.. new class at least got new ppl la.. hehz.. den this sem seems to be abit relax lehz..

fyp think doing with sam.. so hope gonna be a good one!

todae! 17/4/06 is 10th months!! hehez.. i juz love my gal.. hahah!! muacks!

btw i miss clubbing!! haha!!

finish

2006-02-28T11:06:00.000-08:00

i FINALLY finish my papers! oh god! it's been a stressful month for mi.. hehe.. but the coming of exams means no working in mac!!! oh yea! i hate working! i juz dunno y.. i work for the sake of working manz! argh.. nvm.. wenta lately..been to town like 4 times this week? hahah.. lolx.. nothing better to do.. chill with my classmates.. those char bos.. haha.. den went down to see aes b gals match.. haha.. not bad.. won.. into the finals of west zone.. great peeps.. :) that's the spirit of AES.. hehez.. :D

something unfornuate happen to gal gal's cousin.. hmz.. accident.. gal was kinda sad over it.. hmz.. hope she'll get over soon.. hehez.. :) it's been another 2 weeks since i saw her.. lolx.. hahah.. been like ages huhz! manz.. i miss her.. she's busy with her routine la.. as usual. mine too.. so the lesser we are able to meet up.. and oh ya.. i've watch 6 movies in 4 daes inculding of vcds and dvds.. hahah.. lolx..

tml i'm down for a 3 daes 2 nite chalet! oh yea!! it's chilling time! i love to chill out with no work no studies no worries.. life's juz great! hope to spend my holidae's peacefully peeps! attachment to bukit batok industrial park A.. okie.. kinda near to my homey.. so i count myself lucky? hah.. hope so.. hope the peeps there are good souls too.... :) *prays*

friendship are part and parcel of our lives... we cant do without it.. but i juz hope everything is fine btw good frends! do cherish your good pals around ya.. as u dunno when they'll leave ya for another reason..

i finally finish my second yr of poly life.. can u believe i'm 18? HAHAHAZ.. kinda shock by some self reflections.. nah... i miss ball.. i lost the feel of it.. so taking ball as a hobby when i feel like playing juz go to 214 shoot shoot.. den home.. no more competetion for mi.. for the benifit of my back la! haha..

heard some news ago, when ppl are fighting to win some stupid game, they use fucking lousy techniques eg: like elbow my back to made mi paralyse... oh yea! wat a great mates u have been huhz! fuk! juz cant believe that winning a game need to destory someone future! hahz! now i've found out! hoho.. *shakes head* get all the champ u wan.. juz think in someone's shoe b4 u act it out! pls! go thru ur brain once.. but it's okie la! since i dun play ball animore.. no harm! juz disappointed that it juz came across your mind when u wanna win! hahaz.. okie..

waha

2006-02-17T08:27:00.000-08:00

hmz.. been a stressful week for mi! exams and exams! nightmare everydae.. dreamt of second paper... sadded.. ahaha.. after todae's mbw paper! finally a relaxing dae.. we finish the paper at 11.. den see lo awhile.. after that when to town for a meal at pastamania. hehez.. food was alrite! den procced to watch the fog! omg!!!!!!!!!! thriller show! was nice! was scary too! haha... i shout till like no tml.. haha... damn funny.. got mi sam eerik penny serene carol anna and lisha.. but anna went off in the middle.. hehez.. was good day.. den after at bout 6.. sam and eerik went off.. the 5 of us went for dinner.. den chat till i meet noi.. den go to hl house! haha.. bbq! i saw alot of my ex mates! was actually so glad to see them.. hehez.. saw zuer and shi shi, guanmin, noi my gals! omg.. so touch to see them.. and b boys too!! hehez..

of coz i meet my gal on thursdae nite! hhehe.. was so happy to saw her! miss her damn lot! huggie! tml meet ya! yea! muacks! i love ya!

v dae!!

2006-02-13T08:47:00.000-08:00

hmz... it's v dae! :) hmz.. first year i spend my v dae with someone i never regret! :) hehehz.. that's my sweet lovely gal! :) i gave her DIY flowers! all made by myself.. when to pick love seeds.. one by one pick from my hand! haha.. den a pig having my voice saying i love you! muacks! i hope my gal loves the presentie! :D hehe.. too bad juz cant spend it tml.. as she's having her competion and i'm having my papers! sorry gal.. cant spend it with ya! :`( it's gonna be 8 months soon deary.. the 17th is coming.. times realli flies.. i juz hope we would cherish each other form now onwards without any regrets.. we are both buzy.. but i'm sure we'll work it out somehow! hehehz...

celebrate ah gay's bdae in NYDC.. hehez.. was a great day out with sam, eerik, lauryn, carol, serene, ke ying, penny and lisha .. bought muffins as cakes! haha.. the muffins was rock hard! damn it! haha.. but was a nice day spending the nite at esplandae.. haha.. on the way back couldnt stop laughing at bout penny's joke! *pengz* haha.. ku ji!

juz book my tp on 15 june! hope to get my tp soon drive my precious gal around! so we wun get stuck in mrt no more! and we can go far far.. hehez!

peck hoon! i juz love ya too much.. cant afford to let ya go.. :) dun dump mi hor! hahah!! muacks!

END of quarrels

2006-02-07T08:08:00.000-08:00

hmz... been bad recently.. btw the 2 of us i know.. hmz.. our relationship is on the edge of breaking.. but i hope after that scary nite.. after the tok, solves the problem btw us.. is part of my fault. i try to fork out more time for u okie?! hehez.. sorry bout v dae! i cant spend with u! i'm so sorry.. i got papers the next day... i'm realli sorri to neglect u this few months... my bad.. but i'm realli trying to slove it.. more time pls.. :) hmz.. i juz hope that we'll last.. :D trust in mi pls.. oh ya! good luck for ya matches.. take good care of ya flu! drink more water.. heh.. i love ya lots!

been to no where on chinese new year! i think i broke record in my life time. ang bao 28 bucks.. muahahahha!! lolx.. dun believe? it's true! been working all day in my new year.. chu 2 i think went outside ton.. haha.. kinda tired. on the same week, also wenta small eye monster house lao yu sheng.. haha.. was gambling.. sam and penny was bored! haha.. couple ma.. is like that. hehez..

exams coming.. till 28 of feb.. den got chalet 3 daes. aha.. den till 3/3 ba.. hehez.. i hate exams! becca buck up! last exams of second yr! haiz.. juz dun retain can le.. ahaha.. i hate pm1 and con pro!

i miss bball.. i miss aes.. i miss my teamates.. i miss buddies.. i miss my gal.. and mostly i miss my grandma.. :~(.. it been 2 months since she's away.. hope she's enjoying her life up there.. i love everyone.

heheh

2006-01-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

i think these few months will be some competion month... gal got grading and badminton.. wish ya grading got double and good results for ya badminton.. hmz.. as for sp gals.. good luck to ya guys.. :D hope everything will be smooth for u peeps.. get top 4!! :) as for me? wat i've got? gotta finish up my CLDP!!! fuk manz.. hate to do things that kanna force.. bo bian..

congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whahah.. lolx.. it's half a year and and 20 daes!!! haha... 11 more days to 7 months!! it's been quite tough for us i think.. been quarreling and stuffs.. but wat i wanna ya to know that is i onli love ya.. i dun have a second feeling for that "her".. u gotta believe mi. i know is hard to earn ya trust.. but gib mi sometime to prove it.. i dun wanna another walking marathon from cck to bukit gombak animore.. is so tiring!! hehez.. but loving x mas!! and i spend my first day of 2006 with my lovely you.. hugs.. i miss ya.. :)

coke and pepsi is wat i ask for!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....... ASK FOR MORE!!
LOLX~!! MUACKS!

new year..

2006-01-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

alrite.. is been so long since i blog.. hmz.. juz living my life to the fullest tat's all i can say.. i spent my new year with buddies and piggy! fireworks was great! beautiful.. last term of 2nd yr! attachment soon.. get my license fast fast! hehehz...

but recappin back of 2005, good and bad things happen to mi.. i got my gal. but i lost my grandma. hmz.. i lost my wallet, hp and keys for the first time.. haha... i got wack by mac.. hmz.. major things in 2005 la..

wat do i wan in 2006? i dunno.. but i juz wanna hve my family, piggy and frends with mi.. peaceful life.. settling down.. dun wanna anymore unhappy things to happen.. but i know, that unhappy day will come.. juz sooner or later. hope it juz come the later the better..

i miss ya badly.. i wanna live forever with ya.. not juz the 2 years from wat i predict.. i'm greedy.. i wan more! so hope u'll be okie with my idea huhz! ahaha!! lolx!! i love ya!

gal gal..

2005-12-11T19:36:00.000-08:00

gal.. dun need to worry for mi.. dun need to say sorry.. i can handle it on my own.. and u were always there for mi when i need u.. dun need to feel guilty. as for yz and wq.. hmz.. i think u need to settle it.. i dunno how.. but hope u know wat to do bout it.. u are ot stupid la.. hahha.. sometimes lo.. whahahah.. juz dun worry la.. exams and stuff will be over by this week.!! whee.. hehehz... yea!

ps: dun say u are not fit. once u are mine u are forever mine! muahaha.. *evil smile* i love ya!

gone

2005-12-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

hmz.. bad week. grandma juz passed away.. haiz.. on the 5/12/05.. she didnt survied thru this yr.. buzy week. and i missed one paper.. a call from malaysia juz shock my mum and family. rush back to malaysia within 5 hours. i couldnt realli believe my ears when i heard. until i reach there, i saw her in the coffin covered with blankets and her pic was in front. i teared. my mum was the worst. it hurts to see my mum in this situation. it's jux sux totally. i have alot of things to say. but somehow i dunno to express in words. i juz know that in my mind grandma was in good healthy condition.. my last memory of her was like 5 yrs ago?! and i had little memories with her. think when i was small i remember she held my little hands and stroll along boon lay shopping center? it's fading.. didnt get to see her much too.. didnt even study.. juz came home ytd.

grandma.. juz rest in peace. not enough anithing juz tell mi in my dreams and i'll burnt it to you.. i'll miss you.

and better treat ya loved ones good b4 they die.. watever u do during or after the funeral is useless!!!!! it's a show u show others how filial piety u are! haiz.. it's juz regrets... they'll have rebutition....

we'll see

harry potter

2005-11-29T00:34:00.000-08:00

fri: wenta sch.. DIDNT WORK!!!! had my beautiful teeth done!!!! whahah!! mei mei! den wenta eat sakae with my mum.. was on mi.. she beri bad!!! whahah.. den after that wenta back to aes play ball.. the lady sux! played 10 mins.. left for prata shop.. long time since i've been there again.. hmz.. den slack at there.. tok crap.. lolx!! was fun slacking nuaing around.. den wenta yew tee the new court there play bball again.. haha.. play till quite song.!! lolx.. nice working out session with those crazie peeps!! hhehe..

sat: DIDNT WORK!!!! sleep till quite late.. it's been so long since i sleep so late.. think 11.30 ba.. whahah!! den wenta meet gal gal go bugis... since a week.. gal gal thin le.. sick lo.. haha.. waist also smaller.. think if she sees this she'll be sooo happy!! whahah!! lolx!! :D den gal gal acc mi go meet xin in town.. haha.. meet new gal la.. den wenta holland V eski bar. drink. chat. tok cork. play. qi came along! weee.. so long neber meet up.. got 5 months plus.. den chat.. bui bui sehz sehz eh.. whah.. play till like my house like that!! whaha! den after drinking move on to brekso lol..saw yan bing!! play at there too.. later mei mei come along.. den qi buzy le lo.. stay till 3++.. qi they wall went home.. left there and headed for jurong.. 3++ in the moring guess wat we did?!?! play BBALL!!!! lolx!! whaha.. in my whole life so early play ball huh! whah.. it's opp gal's house lehz! call her actually wanna her acc mi.. she went back to sleep!! *strangles ya* wahah!! lolx.. den lay till sweat.. imagine long pants with shirts!! play bball.. yucks.. den nua awhile at coffe shop.. took cabbie home!!! sooo tired!!

sun: stay at home till late afternnon bath went out to marina square to eat.. celebrating my dad's bdae.. wenta eat paris!! wow!! was all good food~!!!! saw carin!! she working at cafe cartle.. lolx.. so qiao hur! btw.. comment on food.. was REALLI NICE!! i had realli good food.. one person 45++ whah.. of coz dad pay! whee.. den family chat.. after that wenta search for my bro's leather jacket.. at mustafa!! omg. whah.. shall not comment on this.. whahha.. later kanna jail..

mon: wenta sch.. harry potter with sam eerik and penny.. hehe... couple sit.. sam and eerik COUPLE SIT!! whaha!! Lolx!! so funni!! ate junks.. went home after that.. tml having bbq at sembawang.. hahh.. been so long since i've so much fun continuously... relaxing fun week end.. thurs chicken little.. i love the daes when i'm not working.. buti love the paying daes more!!!! whaha.. $_$ heez.. yawns...

5th!!

2005-11-18T02:20:00.000-08:00

hmz.. haz.. time flies.. it's been 5 months!! lolx.. :D i miss ya..

ytd wenta serene house to have steam boat! hehez.. nice dinner.. :D happy bdae! recently been buzy with sch projects!! and working too... damn it!! is so tiring.. it's 2am now and i'm still awake.. and i still owe a thousand plus bucks to my tooth and driving!! kinda pressure by money matters.. so gotta work harder. juz wondering y i still cant sleep.. my body is tired, but my mind is still active. and i've been sleeping in class!!! omg! and i cant catch wat the teacher say! gonna have sch problem sooner or later, coz i've pon todae's morning class.. this sem juz sux! all the modules i dun like! all similar course to CT!~!!!!

sometimes, i realli wonder y we work so hard for? anione wanna tell mi?

gal.. i misses ya!! the moment i hear u weep, my heart juz sinks. i tht wat could realli happen.. i was relief actually was juz the bleaching of ya shirt and not other matters. it's the first time i heard ya cried so badly! dun shed ya tears animore.. tears are the most important weapon to women. u must use it when necessary.. lolx! hmz... u think thru la.. and ur temper ar!! is getting bad nowadaes.. mood swings. whahah.. lolx! the rest still okie... :) -hugs- love ya lots! and it's 1 1/2 months to next yr! haha.. *shivers* whahhahaha!! lolx!! change date line can?! lol lolx!!! :p

fa ru xue!

2005-11-06T20:18:00.000-08:00

狼牙月伊人憔悴
lang ya yue / yi ren qiao cui
A wolf fang moon, my dear one is waned and sallow

我举杯饮尽了风雪
wo ju bei / yin jin le feng xue
I raise a cup and drink in the wind and snow

是谁打翻前世柜
shi shui da fan qian shi gui
Who overturned the cupboard of past lives

惹尘埃是非
re chen ai shi fei
Provoking the dust to dispute

缘字诀几番轮回
yuan zi jue / ji fan lun hui
A predestined formula for words, how many reincarnations?

你锁眉哭红颜唤不回
ni suo mei / ku hong yan huan bu hui
You frown, a faced cried red cannot be called back

纵然青史已经成灰
zong ran qing shi yi jing cheng hui
Even if the annals of history has already become dust

我爱不灭
wo ai bu mie
My love will not end

繁华如三千东流水
fan hua ru san qian dong liu shui
Grandeur is like three thousand waters flowing south

我只取一瓢爱了解
wo zhi qu yi piao ai liao jie
Yet I only choose a ladle of love to comprehend

只恋你化身的蝶
zhi lian ni hua shen de die
Only long for your butterfly incarnation

你发如雪凄美了离别
ni fa ru xue / qi mei le li bie
Your hair is like snow, beautifully chilling the parting

我焚香感动了谁
wo fen xiang gan dong le shui
Who is touched by my incense?

邀明月让回忆皎洁
yao ming yue rang hui yi jiao jie
Invite the bright moon to make my memories bright and clear

爱在月光下完美
ai zai yue guang xia wan mei
Love becomes immaculate underneath the moonlight

你发如雪纷飞了眼泪
ni fa ru xue / fen fei le yan lei
Your hair is like snow, a mess of flying tears

我等待苍老了谁
wo deng dai cang lao le shui
Who has been made old by my waiting?

红尘醉微醺的岁月
hong chen zui / wei xun de sui yue
The word of mortals are intoxicated, slightly drunken eras

我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑
wo yong wu hui / ke yong shi ai ni de bei
I use my lack of regret to carve out a stone tablet that represents my eternal love for you

(Rap)
你发如雪凄美了离别
ni fa ru xue / qi mei le li bie
Your hair is like snow, beautifully chilling the parting

我焚香感动了谁
wo fen xiang gan dong le shui
Who is touched by my incense?

邀明月让回忆皎洁
yao ming yue rang hui yi jiao jie
Invite the bright moon to make my memories bright and clear

爱在月光下完美
ai zai yue guang xia wan mei
Love becomes immaculate underneath the moonlight

你发如雪纷飞了眼泪
ni fa ru xue / fen fei le yan lei
Your hair is like snow, a mess of flying tears

我等待苍老了谁
wo deng dai cang lao le shui
Who has been made old by my waiting?

红尘醉微醺的岁月
hong chen zui / wei xun de sui yue
The word of mortals are intoxicated, slightly drunken eras

我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑
wo yong wu hui / ke yong shi ai ni de bei
I use my lack of regret

啦儿啦 ~
la er la ~
La er l a~

铜镜映无邪扎马尾
tong jing ying wu xie / zha mai wei
There is nothing wicked reflected in the bronze mirror; tie a ponytail

你若撒野今生我把酒奉陪
ni ruo sa ye / jin sheng wo ba jiu feng pei
If you act wildly, in this life I will pour a cup wine and keep you company

beautiful lyrics... by 方文山..

whee..

2005-11-06T00:04:00.000-08:00

tue: work.. gal gal come find mi and wait till i finish work. appreciated realli. thanx! so sent her home.. walk from lakside again.. whee. feeling was great.. tok alot. okie.. lesser barrier! lesser secret btw us.. hehez... dun worry.. haha.. i'll love ya more!

wed: sch and work.. work till 12!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gonna go crazy by work..

thurs: holidae again. hmz.. work till 2.30. meet gal gal play bball at 213. LOLX!!!! so funnniiii!!! gal gal play bballl so ke ai!!! lolx!! dun call mi MVP again! i'm not qualified. and i'll be unhappy okie! hehehz... juz dun like ppl calling mi MVP... u ppl see le also implies to u guys ar! haha.. wenta food culture to slack. the sky was beautiful.. a nice bluey sun set.. seldom see this colour! lolx.. and i saw it with gal gal too.. went to JEC to study at bout 8.. lolx.. i made gal gal angry.. ya i know this time my fault.. but is like so long le! dun angry le la! hehehz.. yes!!!! the photocopy shop is freaking far!!! i ask around! got 3 ppl tell mi 3 different place! i walk like siao! whaha.. but u happy can le la! :D hehez.. sent her home.. love hugging ya!

fri: sch. after that wenta gal gal house to slack.. haha.. lolx.. den wenta mac. got my hair sprayed BLACK!!!! whahah!! lolx! is so weird! den wenta KAP and had my CL verification.. lolx!! i passed!!! yea! whahha!! lolx.. :D.. den wenta woodland see boss's baby boy! whaha!! cutie boy!!! he is 3.91kg!! wah heavy boy! lolx.. den home..

sat: wenta sentosa!!!!!!!! the weather sux! raining!! den stop den windy.. water was cold! haha.. *shivers* whahah.. alot of chio bu! den got one dog, think is chiwawa but look like PIG!!! realli look like small piglet!! whahahha!!! so cute!! haha.. lolx! love spending my time with gal gal!

PS: coke and pepsi.. best brand ever!!! whahaha!!!! and they come together!! lolx!!! gal gal u should know wat i mean huhz!! LOLX!!!!!!!!! -kisses ya- whee.. i need ya. i love ya.

sentosa

2005-11-01T04:03:00.000-08:00

sat: wenta sentosa to tann myself!! whee.. went with gal gal.. lolx!! the sun was good.. i tht i tann alittle, but my face got a bit black!! whaha.. lol... whee.. oh.. i love the sun, sand, sea and beach.. of coz not forgetting babes! wahaha.. lolx.. sun tanned till 2 den bom bom. after that sentosa island tour till 5.. hahha.. lolx!! was so tired!!!!!! den took 188 to cck.. play arcarde! whahah.. lolx!!! wheee. den sent gal gal home.. walk from lakeside to her house. nice journey! hmz.. dunno i still have how many chances of holding her hands walk through there again.. and oh ya... i was a bit harsh.. sorri.. i meant ya well.. forgive mi! hehhez..

whenever u are with mi, how do u know i'm happy?! the ans is when u are happy i'm happy too.. coz whenever u smile u juz brightens up my day.. hehez.. i need ya gal.. love ya lots.. muacks!!!

sun: work

mon: sch reopens. long dae. was so tired! yawns.. play dota till 4 in the morning.. which is now! whhha.. play with sam and eerik! the gays! i love them!! u guys are so cute! whaha..

*-BIG HUGS-* kisses ya gal gal!!!

:)

2005-10-28T10:29:00.000-07:00

tue: my tooth gone! sadded.. meet gal gal.. den off to my place.. my tooth hurts!!

wed: slacking at home whole dae!

thurs: woke up acc my brother to eat mac breakfast.. lolx.. was a full one.. den wenta settle my tooth... luck now look better le! whaa.. den wenta meet gal.. went queensway buy clothings. coz sch reopening ma.. den sent gal gal home.. after that took bus 187 saw hai xin on the bus.. lolx! how sway can i be.. so wenta see them trg den slack with them.. lolx! i missed them... gu and jin hhui faster recover okie! take good care of yaself..

If I am pressed to say why I loved her, I feel it can only be explained by replying: "Because it was her; because it was me."

the greatest weakness of all humans is to hesitancy to tell how much they love them when they are still alive....
so i'm gonna tell her right now!! i miss you badly!! and i love ya!!! hugs-

hmz..

2005-10-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

grandma fell down badly... dunno anithing serious anot.. so mum went back to raub to look at her.. hope she's well now..

thurs: wenta bugis.. whee.. shop around lo.. took noe prints.. nice nice.. haha.. den wenta clark quey nite walk.. was damn relax! but abit smelly.. coz of the construction smell la.. but kinda a good place to slack and nua around.....

fri: tht meeting gal.. but she ar!!! haha.. lolx.. i left my keys with her.. hhaah.. how dumb of mi.. but in the end didnt meet up.. coz i hafta work lo.. sadded..

sat: meet gal gal.. wenta bukit timah to have our lunch.. the cheese prata is damn cheesey!! we love it.. haha.. the pisang prata too!! and guess wat! i saw joanne there with calvin the the rest of 1st assistances!! all are mac managers! lolx!! gal and i was like, shall we change place?! hah... but dun care, coz that's the onli air con room they have la.. haha.. lolx.. den wenta pool.. gal gal play like shit! lolx!!! now den u know i li hai rite!!! lolx!!! den after that, gal gal acc mi to cck.. acc her to wait for 188 coz she going home.. i damn guilty.. oh ya! damn sway.. saw jj on that bus! lolx.. after that wenta meet yu, cheryl, apple and that jj lo.. haha.. buy cake den went bukit timah again!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whahah.. lolx.. i know i bo liao la.. but haha.. bo bian.. meet up with 4/3 peeps plus teh lan and ronald..hmz.. hah.. nice gathering.. chat tok chat! i love them!! they are the best group of friends that i ever had manz!! so guys see this are u all touch!? lolx.. happy bdae to cheryl and ronald!! whee.. meey up again!!

sun: early in the morning at bout 6++ being call up by my dad!!!! wah lao!!! i was like sundae come'on let mi have some sleep. den dad purpose of calling us up is to have breakfast with him!! lolx!!!!! funni cuite dad la! bo bian.. i literally was draggin my leggies.. wenta jurong east market there to have my BREAKFAST!! is realli early lo! haha.. den buai ta han.. after that i went home to sleep again!! slept till 3 woke up and bath.. coz 4 working.. till now.. finally home... gonna sleep again.. tml working.. oh.. i got no life!

if u ask mi wat i wanna be, i would wanna choose to be the oreo cookie.. why?! coz u'll be the whitey creamy.. and the black oreo will always goes with the whitey cream..
if u ask mi again wat i wanna be, i wanna be the milk tea.. coz without the pearls, the bubble milk tea is not completed..

i love ya. *SWEAR*

18th

2005-10-20T00:54:00.000-07:00

oh.. went changi airport. walk walk.. couldnt find the place where the planes take off.. den wneta je watch corpse bride. hah.. nonsense show.. lolx.. hmz.. alrite la.. but finally i saw my dear.. darn happy... is a finally.. after so many weeks.. haha.. lolx! exams results out.. sadded... didnt do well..

den todae.. wenta basic test.. whee i pass!!! whahah.. lolx.. yea!! den slack till that ben finish her ice skating la! den wenta lot 1 tht gonna go that park eat dinner! but whu know! that bloody damn shop! haha.. under renovation! haha.. lolx.. was like drizzling!! so cold!!! haha.. den walk walk sent her home! whee.. lucky meeting yun tml ar.. lol... buying lens! yea! working in da morning is realli terrible.. i need some sleep badly! i hate holidaes!!

sch start pls! pls pls pls.. and oh ya! god of fortune.. pls let my parents or sis tio 4d so i can have some spare cash!! whahahahah!! lolx!!

4 months

2005-10-17T23:18:00.000-07:00

whee.. 4 months..
:)

u bring out the best in me.. like no one else can do.. that's y i'm by ur side.

why?

2005-10-15T10:19:00.000-07:00

I don't regret the things I have done or the things I have chosen not to do because what ever I've done, I must have done something right because I ended up with you.. :)

i hate working.
argh~~!

gal... we'll gonna work this out together. i'll walk with you! i love ya.

My heart is to love you everyday,
When you are sad I'll take the pain away,
When I close my eyes all I can see,
Is my sweetheart girl looking at ne,

Your pretty face your nice smile,
Hope me and you last a while.

exams..

2005-10-10T01:07:00.000-07:00

when are u gonna have your exams end?!
when are u gonna spend your time with mi?!
when will i be able to to meet ya?!

gal. i misses ya! love ya! but seems that our communication is getting from bad to worst huhz. i think is mi again. sorri.. i'll try hard juz for you.. and control. i've tht about it.. i think u also need some freedom of ya own.. and moreover i dunno how la.. so is all to ya advantage! wahahaha!! lolx.. still complain! whaha... i wanna hugs ya tightly! muacks!

gal gal..

2005-10-06T23:40:00.000-07:00

gal gal didnt sms mi for the whole day.. dunno wat's wrong with her.. hmz.. but finally i'm meeting her tml!! wheeee!!!! yea!!! whahah....

i wenta bukit batok to book my btp and all that la.. didnt know it cost so much!! wah lao! now pocket big hole.. gonna claim from mummy liaoz! haha... den i squeeze all the lessons and practice all in three daes.. so sundae gonna have my btp!! whee!! pass den take provisional licence den can drive.. finally!! wahaha!!

i wanna go wala.. i wanna hear the live band.. i wanna finish my driving as fast as possible.. i wanna hug my gal. i wanna be free from worries.. i wanna.. haha..
i'm too greedy!

complained

2005-10-03T02:54:00.000-07:00

woooo.. holidae started for about a weeek le.. so i'm gonna work like mad.. i'm a workholic.. whaha... gonna earn money! whee.. but i'm gonna grumble for sometime till the holi ends.

we both feel that the distance have drift apart.. i dunno why.. i think is coz u are having ur exams. den i'm working.. the time juz doesnt click.. hang on there gal.. is gonna be over soon. dun think too much.. juz concentrate on ya studies now.. juz about 3 weeks onli la..
and i think is gonna be a month when we are meeting! lolx.. i think the other factor is we didnt meet up too.. that's y ba.. i realli got no time.. i'm working everydae.. except sat. i'm damn sianz la.. dun see that i like working. i dun like at all lo!!!! is not the ppl la! but is the hectic life and schedule there! there's onli half an hour for break and it's like u gonna stand on ya legs for 8 1/2 hours lehz!!! ookie.. think i grumble too much! and customers with att problems, fuck off.. sigh.. finally type finish le.

and btw, after ur exams 2 weeks later i'm starting sch again.. and u are having ur holi.. haiz! our time juz dun match!!!! omg! damn it la!! sianz la!!!! how!? blah blah blah! i've too much too think now.. bye

wahla wahla

2005-09-30T03:37:00.000-07:00

haha.. work todae.. till 4 den meet hazel xin and jolene.. hehez.. wenta holland V.. ate our dinner at BKden proceed to the place name wala wala.. it was the kind of sittin down listenin to live band.. the live band was named "unexpected". the club actually is 21 yrs to go in la.. but i smuggle thru.. haha.. den we was like imagining how pretty or gorgeous is the lady singer who was the main singer. she walk in and i saw her back view and she look like a normal ordindary gal to mi.. and she give mi the feeling that cannot make it!! BUT when the live band started, OMG!!! i was ALL WRONG bout her! she's so powerful! she had the charisma! WOW!! was a realli wow experience in wala wala. we even took pics with sheryln. hah.. ya her name! haha!! lolx! think she's also not str8 la.. haha.. that's wat i and xin predict la.. they perform every thurdae at 9 .45 till 12+.. was great!!! her singing was powerful! is realli nice! if u guys have a chance to smuggle into wala on thrusdae, pls do and listen to her singing with her band.. and the drummer was brandon. great drummer! haha!! but sheryln is great!! the band even sang a bdae song for xin lo! whah!! lolx! lucky her!! wheee!! whah!! the 4 of us are going GAGA over her manz! think i'm gonna go next week!!! wheee!! i wanna hear her sing again!! is worth it!!!

bdae!!

2005-09-25T20:40:00.000-07:00

thursdae: wenta study in sch till 4 plus.. den wenta change my shirt. den after that met noi come my house celebrate my bdae!! den shi and her bf came along! hah!! lolx! we tooks lots of lame pics la! so funni! stay at my house till 12.. den wenta home! thanx shi and noi celebrating my bdae!! thanx!

fri: had my econs paper! wheee!! didnt know that the paper was the same as some papers! haha!! lolx! den after that celebrate my bdae at marina south! we ate steamboat! whaha!! was fun!! i love my class mates!! thanx alot!! :)

sat: wenta je 'study'.. haha.. as if got! nua my time with yunz!! whee!! hah!! finaly i got to see her! it's been so long la!! haha. ate and play! ahha.. lolx! she gave mi a wind chime, a letter and cookies!! she BAKE cookies for mi!!!! whahhahahahahaha!!! u guys didnt see wrongly! is she bake choc cookies with white choc on top! wha!! lolx! yes.. i'm touch! realli thankful to u! appreaciated! xie xie ni! gal gal.. not gonna meet for a long time.. u having ur exams.. so think i'm gonna pia work le also.. earn more money for us! and we go play!!! whaha!! okie! i love ya! muacks!

sehz

2005-09-20T22:33:00.000-07:00

did nothing much nowdaes! wanted to fetch yunz... i finish my paper at 3.30.. den she sms she 6 den finish her trg.. so i went home instead.. i wanted to see her.. but is like the intervals are so long.. hmz.. sorryyy.. :(. i break my promise. say wanna go fetch u. but in the end didnt go. haiz.. * guilty* i misssss ya!!!

:) dun love mi for fun gal. let mi be the wonder. love mi for a reason. let the reason be love.

missing someone realli feels bad. damn bad! the most important thing is u cant see her.. sooo xin ku! i'm missing ya smile, ya smell, the way u look at mi, the hugs and everything!! juz misses ya badly..

wee hours of nites,
seeing ya face in ma dreams.
it was such a wonderful dream. :) hehez.. i love ya!

wheeee!!!

2005-09-18T00:24:00.000-07:00

lantern festival tml!!! todae 3 months!!! whaha!!! yea!!! :D sooooooooooooo fast!! :) love to be with ya..

fri: i've got my mbw paper!! i cant finish it.. damn it.. sadded la.. den bo bian.. had lunch in sch.. den wenta town to play lan! can u believe is onli $1.50 per hour?! haha.. we played 4 hours la! haha.. after that wenta cine ate long john eve came along! haha... so happy to hang out with my gays!! i love the 2 of them!!! soo cute!

sat: woke up. no one at home. about 2.30, mum home. den i meeting yun at 3.. i bath and wear nicely le. ask mi last min mop the floor for her den can go out.. i pu siao at hime.. where everyone was at home tat time. haha. i dun care juz anyhoe do and ran off. met yun at 3 in je.. after 9 days of not meeting her.. finally!!!! is realli finally.. we wenta popular. buy things.. den wenta je to study. den i made her angry AGAIN!!!! lolx.. but now okie le la.. haha.. i said something wrong and pissed her off again.. sadded.. sorry.. i wun say it again..we ate long john and kobayashi.. haha.. i love kobayashi!!! is yummy!! soooo nice!! :) after that wenta chinese garden!!! next yr i wanna go again!! with yun and not anyone else.!!! haha.. the lanterns were damn beautiful! realli beautiful! there were lots of animals. but is a dinosaurs theme lantern festival. was nice.. the merlion was fantasic! ( u jump i jump) hhehez.. there was this dino island. the volcano looks real with smoke and stuffs la.. i feel like i'm so young again. hehez.. we wenta the wishing tree and have a wish! hehez.. wishing for something we both wanted. is last long. we queue up for the lantern.. walk around with the paper lanterns in our hand! ssooo young again! it's mean so long i had them in my hands.. soo sweet!.. walk around, ended up in the japanese garden. haha.. we walk half way.. den got one tram like thingy.. hahaha.. so we sat on it.. for like one full round?! hahha!!! but guess wat? we are lost.. the wrong way. haha.. den walk back again.. to the mrt entrance. haha.. took bus to her house. den she sent mi to 187 busstop la. home den. overall.. was hot!!!! whaha!! buai tahan! hhaa..

silly gal! dun shed ur tears for silly things again la.although missing someone is painful when i cant see u, but being with u a little while, i'm realli content. i dun ask for more. xin fu is juz the right word to use! the heartache juz disappear when the moment i see u. hehehz.. the happiness is within mi... happy 3 months and one day. !!! haha!!

neopets

2005-09-14T00:49:00.000-07:00

haha!!! last time when my frends told mi that they own a neopet. i find how childish was that! guess wat? i own one now!! whahha!! lolx!!! cutie little imaginary pets.. or online pets? haha.. the account was created by yun la.. so cute!! and so sweet! lolx.. hha.. but i find out actually neo pets was kinda interesting?! haha.. or maybe to prevent more tortise from dieing?! haha.. lolx.. sweet la.. hehez.. and 4 more days to 3 months!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! whahahaa!!!! cant wait for this coming sat!!! lantern festival!! gonna go lakeside! ehhez!!! i love ya more!!!! coz i cant let u go.. no matter where u go, how fast u run, i'll be chasing rite behind u! juz incase u fall.. i'll be there to hold u. :D
missing ya gal! muacks!

angry..

2005-09-10T18:58:00.000-07:00

ops!! i make my gal angry again... i think i say something wrong... i also dunno wat did i say to make her pissed off with mi la. but no matter wat i say i cant take it back now! juz wanna say sorry la! dui bu qi!!!
i miss ya!

qns.

2005-09-09T13:08:00.000-07:00

wenta study ytd with yunz in je library.. we wanna die of studying le.. haha.. i still have alot to study lehz!! is alot!!! omg! cant imagine!! yunz better finish up ur hw b4 the holidae ends.. and the green green things dun exist! haha!! lolx! i'm so happy that i gotta hear ur voice last nite! :) hehehz!! lolx.. gonna go to sch for eye check up le!

i'm realli fortunate to be ur guy!!! being ur guy is not hard at all.. all i ask for is ya to be happy! :D u'll be my eveything and i'm ur onli thing. i love ya lots!!! *hugz*

match

2005-09-06T23:34:00.000-07:00

wow.. was so fun to play bball with them!! haha.. so funny la! cute lehz!! hehez.. den was actually more happy to see noi! she now not my team le! lolx! but den i still pass to her like i always do during my sec sch daes! haha.. was so funni.. and i was tired la.. haha.. sam and eerik say i fat le!!!! haiz.. sadded.!!!

i miss my lao po! hehez.. love her too muacks!

hehez

2005-09-05T08:13:00.000-07:00

fri: wenta sch. was preparing for the skit. haha.. i'm the clown! haha.. lolx.. anithing la.. but when we were dicussing in fc1, lishan laugh so loud that everyone could hear! whaha!! lolx! spoilt her image!! haha!! den actually got match but cancel off coz raining. BUT BUT BUT!! sp char boS are so crazy! they played rubgy!! omg! haha!! damn cute la! all play till so violent! haaha. and somemore is not onli us lehz.. is alot of ppl there!! haha.. xin help her gal to play captain ball? hhaa. we wait till all wanna die of hunger le.. whah.. den wenta clementi eat. home after that with jia yan lo... hehez..

sat: WHEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! wenta meet yun!!! oh yea! my happiest dae of the week! haha... lolx.. wenta buy contect lens near my house. den after that wenta bukit panjang find junjie. after that wenta watch bewitched.. haha.. i know the movie so long le i still watch la.. dun laugh! haha.. den i think i abit not feeling well.. den yun also.. hhaa.. silly la! i miss ya! hehez.. love ya too!! muacks! :)

sun: working.

terms testes coming gonna study. BORING!!

...

2005-09-01T23:15:00.000-07:00

kelvin won.. i agree his singing is nice la.. but i like kelly more.. haha.. has been meeting yun for the pass few daes! is so lucky to be her! i miss her! :) hehez... i love ya! hehez!! muacks muacks!! i feel so xin fu!! heehz! coz i've found my gal.

gal..

2005-08-29T00:42:00.000-07:00

i didnt mean to make ya feel sad... sorry! is my fault!~! is not you.. i'm boring. i juz dunno wat can i do to make ya feel happy.. i did try. but juz didnt works. i'm listening to ya.. but somehow u feel that i'm not. somethings i wanna tell ya, but i swallow back those words. it's not purposely. i didnt mean it.. and u think the negative way. pls dun think too much gal... SORRY! i will do everything juz to make u happy. and i'll change for the better if u feel that i'm not good.
i'll be the best juz for u.
:) coz i realli cherish ya! and i love ya!

happy belated bdae to pui. :)

haiz.

2005-08-26T00:19:00.000-07:00

i got a big quarrel with my mum in the early morning. i realli vent it all on her.. all my unhappiness from the bottom of my heart. i shouted at her. i shouldnt have done that. but she realli made mi pissed off.. i cant stand it anymore that's y i juz burst it out this morning. haiz.. i juz cant find the right time to say sorry to u. so i think since u cant see it.. i'll say sorry here.
sorry mum! i didnt mean to shout at u.. is juz that i'm so tired and early in the morning u scolded mi. and i have to vent my anger on ya. pls be more understandin. i'm tired.. mentally and physically tired too.. haiz.. spare mi pls! :(

it's been quite sometime didnt meet yun too.. sms also seldom. coz when i finish work. she already asleep. den is like been so long since we tok.. i miss you badly! really badly. but sat i'm meeting ya to study in the afternoon!! yea! finally i can see ya! hao xiang ni! :) haha... ai si ni le. and gonna intro a song by wang yi da. na nu hai dui wo shuo. it's nice.

bball

2005-08-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

oh yea!! i wenta sp bball training! manz! i feel so great to play bball again! but the most happiest things is that i miss my teamates! was feeling soo soo good to play and laugh around with them! haha.. i miss ya guys! haaha.. and my cutie little haixin! haha.. i love her! my 38 pui and bun bun! haha.. my crazy gu and jh, gh and others! ... hahah.. glad u guys finally have a good coach now.. hehez!! work hard my gals.. jia you. have u all seen that coach would actually spent his time with his ballers and eat with them? juz to bond his time with them? haha.. that shocks mi.. althought lao heng last time used to do that la. haha.. not alot of coach will do that.. kinda surprise by it.. haha. hope his teaching is good too.. den bring some hope to the team too.. :) haha..
the urge of bball is coming back.. damn it.. not good.. i cant put my 100% if i wanna play. hope u guys understand. sorry gals.

becca's tortise died! so sad!!! haha.. my gal gal say becca didnt move le.. ahaha.. so cute right her! neber mind la.. buy one more la.. dun sad dun sad.!! haha.. so funny la gal! haha!! ke lian.. dun bother over it la.. fated.. kanna bully by yun too much.. so it dies! hahahah!! lolx.. there are so many things i wanna tell ya. but juz cant open my mouth. haha.. i'm really not good with words. so dun stress mi first.. hehez... and i wanna have ya for my own. i'm selfish. i can true to this. whahaa.. miss ya.. love ya.. hugs ya! muacks!

my life changes to the bright side since the day i have ya.

hahah

2005-08-22T21:35:00.000-07:00

lazy to blog. got this from piggy's blog. haha..

thurs: today.. nv go school.. too tired.. xP got a ben dan early mornin 9am knock on my door.. was sleepin so din notice.. den called.. ask me open door.. *opens* O.O i got a shock of my life!! a ben dan hold a bouquet of 3 roses stand in front of me.. pass to me den ask me go have breakfast with ta.. i was in my pyjammas and my hair was so messy.. -.- oh well.. play my com den in e end ate LUNCH!! and had MAC!! of all stuff.. -.- ta pon mornin lesson jus to come lo.. hee.. so sweet!! xD i sent ta to je den in e end ta dun wan go school le.. -.- den we went imm walk walk.. hee!! play here play dere.. xP den ta need to go work le.. so tata le lo.. e rose is in my hands haha!! super sweet!!

i'm the ben dan la.. whahaa..

den wenta simei search our pets! hehez.. didnt sell la.. it's so xin fu can! haha.. den finally got our two cuties! i love them! haha.. :) love ya too!! piggy!!! i wanna be with ya! and the letter was sweet.. thanx for doing so much for mi! :) although i didnt tell ya.. hehez..

2 months!!!

2005-08-17T22:50:00.000-07:00

haha!! is 2 months todae!! yippy.. and i'm so happy to see ya before work! lolx! lucky to have ya! :) haha... happy 2 months! muacks! 20 more months to go! whaha!!

i love ya lots!

first day.

2005-08-15T21:30:00.000-07:00

this is only the first dae of her camp! sadded.. 2 more days to go when she finish her camp!! and 17th of august is coming!!! haha.. finally it's gonna be 2 months time. yippy! hehez. simei's pet shop uncle and aunties waiting for us to go there la! :) whaha!! lolx!

nothing could i ask for more! this is kinda the perfect life i wan.. but i still need my licences! haa...

u are the best gift i ever got from god!

fireworks!!!

2005-08-15T00:50:00.000-07:00

sat.. wenta take back my stupid phone. damn it! memories all lost.. den met yunz. came my house and nua la.. haa.. bad thing: suspected! haha.. whu cares!
sun.. workin 9 in da morning. was so tiring. haha.. i bet i never waste my 3 yrs of poly life. den after work met yun go marina to see the last day of fireworks. haha.. and some others la.. haha.. was so hard to hide from them can! aahahaa!! it's damn funni la! i can onli say the fireworks was the most beautiful i ever seen! especailly the last part! was darn grand! woww! wouldnt it be nice if u are getting married under the fantastic fireworks?! whah! manz! but all this needs money! haha!!

my silly gal gonna go for camp! sadded! not gonna see her for 1 week?!! haha.. we planning to buy some pets! coz she loves them.. hhaa... she target for us, 2 yrs! hope can go till so long and i believed we can! :)
schedule:
mon study 9 till 5.
tue:study 10 till 5.
wed:study 8 till 3. working from 4 till 10.
thurs: study 10 till 4. working from 5 to 10.
fri: study 8 till 12. working from 1 to 9.
sat: free!!! haa!! my onli holiday..
sun: working from 9 till 5. or 3 till 11.. one of it.
see!! i'm darn buzy! ahaa.. damn pack.. my timetable is worst den a maid! hahaa.!! but i think is all worth it! coz i love ya! :) haa!!! silly..

aimlessly

2005-08-10T21:36:00.000-07:00

oh... wenta sch for presentation... haha.. i pass my econs!! oh yea!! whaha.!! lolx! this term results was not bad.. hehe.. quite satisfied! :) haha.. den after sch met yunz! hha.. love to meet her! :) haha!! coz dieing to see her la! haaa!! planning to go yishun.. but reavh north point, is darn boring!! nothing to walk.. wanted to go tanglin mall.. think is tangling la.. dunno where izzit also.. den took bus 852? to bugis.. but stop half way to esplanade... walk walk! was darn romantic can.. haha.. :D was nice walking with ya! :) all i can say now is i will cherish u! and never let go! i miss ya! love ya.. hugs ya! muacks!

charli and choc factory..

2005-08-08T23:36:00.000-07:00

on sat:
heheh!! wenta suntec with yunz.. :) watch the movie charli and choc factory.. oh.. intersting happen during that movie!! whaha!! damn funni! den walk walk, saw tay ping huey! damn he's a hunk! haha!!
sorry it was bad of mi to let go of ya hand! i wun do that again! i promised!! dui bu qi!
on sun: work in da morning. ends one hour earlier juz to meet yunz!! so that i got 1 more hour juz to meet, see her! :) hehez.. whaha!!

i simply juz love ya! :) muacks! :) whaha.. *bites* whaha:) u know wat i mean rite!!!!

bloggy

2005-08-01T22:00:00.000-07:00

hmz... i shall update by my gal's request! ahah.. been 6 wweks now.. :) hehez.. we shall go thru the process happily and with a long outcome!

i'm starting to have emotional and physical attachment to ya... i miss ya! love ya too!!! :)

chalet

2005-07-27T11:40:00.000-07:00

oh. wenta chalet on mon. caro's bbq.. was raining! sianed! but we move to the shelter instead la. so was kinda a indoor bbq.. haha.. we are gonna die of lung cancer. haha.. in the end 8 of us stay at the room.. not comfty!! whaha.. den ytd met up with yu cheryl and jun! haha.. was updated le.. hehehz! lolx! 38 thru out la.. hha.. all of us are broke! ehehe!! thanx yu for ya last dec presentie?! whaha!! lolx!!!! so long! okie.. when will be our next gathering?! hehez..

i miss bball..

i miss going to sch!

i hate working..

i wan a life!

wooo

2005-07-24T00:03:00.000-07:00

oh yea.. happy dae! :) hehez.. we spent 7 hours together!! :) haha.. wenta queensway, ikea, den cck to have our dinner den sent her home! was a happy but tired dae! oh manz.. cck park is realli a nice place!! but da nite sky wasnt playing a good part.. was windy.. :) nice sat!! i wan more these!! love ya.. miss ya! hehez

sehz..

2005-07-23T01:06:00.000-07:00

after todae's talk. i think i realised that i'm the one whu's at fault.. the one whu's having problem... i dunno y! i realli got no ans to all my thinkings. or izzit i think too much? is also hard to maintain one relationship.. u gonna give mi sometime to let my mind run thru.. wat's wrong with mi.

sorry if i made u cry.. i juz wanna u to sort out ur feelings and everything. i dun wanna be the number 2.. u say i'm uncertain or rather i dun have any trust, but i realli dunno wat i'm thinking now. and wat i'm gonna do next.

i dun wanna end it so early! last long long long....
:D give mi sometime. i will think thru.

one more paper

2005-07-20T20:07:00.000-07:00

oh.. one more paper for tml and that's it! finally i can relax le!! oh yea! :D den will have ta start working.. i think royal has forgot about mi! hhaa.. i miss ball. but not gonna touch for the moment now. ani one intersted in coachin a team with high potenial? hhaha.. got sms mi okie?!

todae got a urge to cut my hair and i did that. was kinda satisfied with it la. :) long time since i cut my hair. hehez.. hope i tio 4d too.. den money will keep rolling in for mi! i need money now! *pouts*

hope cai shen ye dotes on mi this time round. hahaz..

i will always love u

1 month

2005-07-14T08:35:00.000-07:00

it's gonna be a month!!! yea!! haha. :D *surprised* hehez! i hope she'll likes the present i gave her for the 1st month!

it's been kinda long i didnt nua with my 38ers! omg~ dunno how's their life.. and yu they all.. neber chat.

it's been a bad yr for mi.. juz pray that the rest of the yr will be smooth for mi!! after exams gonna be holidae again!!! whoooohooo!! i love holis! working time in mac too.. royal neber call mi! call mi pls!

3 weeks

2005-07-10T01:02:00.000-07:00

hehez.. 3 weeks! oh yea..

coming 2 weeks is term testes! yr 2 is sooo stress up.. and seriously i cant cope.. dun understand at all! i need to realli sit and study time!!

back

2005-07-04T21:20:00.000-07:00

i'm back guys! hehehz.. projects are killing mi! exams are coming. and everything juz crops up.. and i'm still sick!! help! i need some good doctors for help! i need money too!! whaha!!

malaysia

2005-07-01T13:02:00.000-07:00

peeps. i will not be around for these few daes.. will be in malaysia! :) i will love ya! muacks! :)

2 weeks!

2005-06-30T22:17:00.000-07:00

gal.. is the second week! 1/7/05 :)

:(

2005-06-25T12:59:00.000-07:00

DAMN SICK!! omg! the sore throat is killing mi! the cough too.. i miss bball! dun torture mi pls..

hmz..

2005-06-21T22:58:00.000-07:00

was bad lots for us! den.. it doesnt matters le la.. juz play it all..

and somethings are juz beyond my controls. i realli cant help.. todaes incident i realli cant do anithing. u cant expect mi to shake of that gal infront of eveyone rite? alrite is my fault la.. i'm not the one whu is so bastard la.. i know u are angry but i realli cant help! they dunno bout anithing.. and i think wat i did is best for u! omg! now i know is diff to maintain it.. i'm sick! mind sick.. mind dead.. and pocket money is dead too!

damn it!

2005-06-18T12:57:00.000-07:00

alrite! i juz wanna let ppl know that when u wanna say something, pls think b4 u say! dun after that, u wanna save the frendship, after that den sorri? words are like water! when u spill it all on the floor.. there's no way u can save it back! understand?! damn it!

sprain my ankle! shouldnt mention whu did it.. i think in court is like that! kanna elbow on eye! was angry! but play bball ma! wanna play FAIR! also bo bian lo.. and heard news la.. wanna let the other group to win. den fine lo.. it defeat the purpose of bball.. wat's the use of playing so hard, all ur best, den u being control by others? since it's their choice. i cant do much.. i juz knew that i've done my part. and WE ARE A TEAM WITH NO COACH! dun ask mi y! headless dragons! neber mind.. xi guan jiu hao! ntohing much to say bout that!

oh.. went out with qi,mei,xin,na,mi and yun! hahah.. so happy! :D finally guys! we waited for a yr plus for this dae! whaha!! and we saw all of them? yea.. i love my brothers and sao es! whaha!! of coz my sweetie! :D i miss ya badly!!

cant go for todae match later.. family got something on.. sorri shen long!! i know u guys can do it! pls!! jia you! i love u all!! thanx for ur guys concern too!! i'm okie.. i love number 4 to 14 of shen longs! all of ya rox! and all the supporters too! muacks!

yea!!

2005-06-17T12:19:00.000-07:00

the fairy tale started on 17/6/2005! hope it starts well with a no end fairy till i dies.

didnt went to sch on fri morning... coz cant wake up! i need some sleep.. haha.. i'm damn lazy la! nua nua too.. haha. den met yun go cut her hair! woo.. the grass are all cut off! haha.. neater la! hehe.. den wenta ntuc to buy pinic stuffs.. but in the end the pinic at west coast cancel coz the weather wasnt playing a good part.. den i was nua nua also la.. came to my house.. play games.. eat sleep.. hha.. nua! oh.. nuaing was realli great! ahah.. i let her see the ppt i did for her! whah.. lolx! first time i see her so shy la! was funni.. and finally she say yes! whaha!! sent her home bout evening time.. nice fridae! :D whaha!! [17062005]

yun

2005-06-14T21:57:00.000-07:00

okie.. wenta sch.. saw birdy and she told mi next tue got trial. as in training la.. i miss u gals! den todae after sch wenta cafe to slack my time away with lauryn.. till 5.30.. 38 lo.. whaha.. den wenta cck to fetch her from work, den sent her home.. we walk from lakeside to her house la.. so far! whaha.. den wenta the 11th storey. the scenery was damn beautiful! was windy and so comfty! nice!! whaha. i love the place! :)
next time, she wanna be a wealthy lady.. and she ask mi be a xiao bai lian! whaha!! lolx!

sch

2005-06-14T12:30:00.000-07:00

oh! i got 3 hrs of break now.. did my powerpoint slides for yun.. whah! nice! love that.. nice weather to sleep manz! but i'm alone damn boring.. gays wenta towny! but i gotta stay in sch to do my things..!

yun pls trust mi.. i'll not betray u! neither will i play around with ya! although i cant give ya ani promises, but at least u muz let mi have a chance to prove it. but i can promised u one thing that u are worrying. i will not be girly.. trust pls! :) i will love ya!

sch was bad!

2005-06-13T23:22:00.000-07:00

sch was bad!! i cant under stand at all!! i realli need help!! and projects are starting! i dun feel like studying.. still in da holidae mood.. mabe influence by the stupid pig la! whah! she's having sore throat. gonna make her honey water. hehez!! miss ya!! muacks!

tht

2005-06-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

u can choose to love mi or dun love mi. but i can onli choose to love u or love u more!! :)

hehez..

2005-06-12T04:08:00.000-07:00

wenta training. was a bad one.. shouldnt mention. play till half i left first.. coz yun came to look for mi.. we walk walk.. go parsa malam. come my house play games.. den she acc yz to queue for energy la.. mi also kanna pull by her to queue.. whaha!! she brought ba zhang made by her mum la... sooo sweet! :) hehez.. i wanna spent my time with u!! zhu i miss u!!

hui you na me yi tian

2005-06-10T13:14:00.000-07:00

it's a sad song by jj lin jun jie! hui you na me yi tian!! damn meaningful and sad!! nice nice song!!

yi jiu si san
shi jie da zhan
a ma nian qing de shi hou
ye ye ai ta na me duo
ta men gan qing hen shen
dan shi ye ye
shen fu zhong ren
jiu zai li xiang de na ye
gei le a ma yi ge wen
qing sheng shuo dao

wo yao li qu
bie zai ku qi
bu yao shang xin
qing ni xiang xin wo
yao deng dai
wo de ai
pei ni yong bu li kai
yin wei hui you na me yi tian
wo men qian zhe shou zai cao yuan ting
niao er ge chang de sheng yin
ting wo shuo sheng wo ai ni

xi yang xi xia
niao er hui jia
a ma tang zai bing chuang shang
hu xi you yi dian san man
yan shen que hen wen rou
kan zhe ye ye
shi tou de yan
wo zhe ta cu cao de shou
a ma lei shui kai shi liu
qing sheng shuo dao

wo yao li qu
bie zai ku qi
bu yao shang xin
qing ni xiang xin wo
yao deng dai
wo de ai
pei ni yong bu li kai
yin wei hui you na me yi tian
wo men qian zhe shou zai cao yuan ting
niao er ge chang de sheng yin
ting wo shuo sheng wo ai ni

wooo

2005-06-10T11:01:00.000-07:00

happy bdae xian!! hehez! happy ar! nice bdae celebration ar.. know her from p2 to now?! wahaha! lolx.. so long le la! more den 10 yrs la..

wenta sch todae. didnt understand wat the lectures are chatting about! i'm away! after that wenta causeway buy tics.. my boyfriend is type B! waah.. den wenta cck fetch yun.. den go to her house wait for her to tidy herself. den cabbie to causeway again.. whaha.. watch the show.. was damn nice!! 3 stars? and juz nice was i'm the type B guy ans she's the type A gal.. was so cute! and is quite true huhz! whaha!! bought a piglet in pajamas for her.. whaha.. den she bought a cross stitch piglet too!! okie.. crazie over piggy and xiong stuffs! thanx alot for todae! :) muacks!

wee..

2005-06-10T00:18:00.000-07:00

feeling better le.. thanx everyone for ya concern!! :) hehez. wenta training juz now.. hehehz.. i love shen long fighters! wha!!

sorri yun for my moodyness.. i wasnt realli feeling good these daes.. all stuffs.. finally i can meet ya tml!! :) whaha.. yippy!! miss yaa!! muacks!

hospital

2005-06-08T23:26:00.000-07:00

was admitted to hospital ytd midnight..the diahrreoa and vomitiing was terrible.. but the worst was the cramp! it was damn unbearble.. i nearly fainted.. a fever of 38.8!! damn! and i got a drip for 3 hours.. coz of dehyration. i was drying up! was a horrible experience! and i think i did slim la.. didnt realli eat for 3 daes!! while i was dripping.. that's a man beside keep coughing! i was so afraid.. and to make things worst, he was moaning in pain! was given a drip and under observation.. and so.. 6 plus den reach home. finally! i miss my bed alot! and i dun think i can sneak out later.. training cant go!! and i skip alot of my sch lessons!
speedy recovery becca!! get well soon!!

where is my fish porridge huhz?! whaha!! i dun care.. i wan ani type of porridge as long as u made one.. :D finally i got time to meet u!! :) okie.. maybe bless in disgusied! whaha!! i miss ya! ALOT!!

food poisoning

2005-06-07T01:30:00.000-07:00

ar i got food poisoning!! wenta the 24 hr clinic! the lady told mi the consulation fee not including the medication fee is $58 bucks! manz.!! althoughter is $80 bucks! i'm broke! i feel sooo sick! wanna die!
oh tml dinner with gays and bitches are cancel coz of mi! so sorri!

my class tutor knew i'm not str8 now! stupid lauryn told her! hahaz.. bo bian.. also cant hide.. a good class tutor! :) geez*

i miss u alot!!! i wanna spent my time with u! but juz so buzy with stuffs now! i realli miss u piggy! :) muacks!

bdae!

2005-06-06T01:13:00.000-07:00

whaha!! wenta lot 1 to buy noi's presenti! whaha.. bought a nike tee den bilabong wallet, and 3 little cute UNDIES!!! whaha!! so cute rite! manz! whaha.. shi shi got a lace undies for her!! whahah!! damn funni.. wenta her mama shop to celebrate.. den bought choco cake! her favourite! whaha!! nice rite! whah.. nice dae! with hl,shi noi and xian! oh!! i love ya peeps!! muacks!!

won!

2005-06-05T01:13:00.000-07:00

we won.. but wasnt realli happy about winning! coz i got jeered by some misunderstandings btw the refrees! not my fault lehz! wah lao! dotz.. but was happy to feel bball again in a league! i wanna feel the power again! good game shen long! keep it up! love ya guys!

a heartless gal came to mi and say that i hurt my back was brought by myself! hmph! neber sayang mi still say this kinda of wet blanket words! baddy! dun like u!

out..

2005-06-04T01:00:00.000-07:00

wenta towny with yun hui and hsiao ling.. wah! wait for them till i die ar! both of them late! whaha!! late for bout 45 mins! wah lao! whah!! neber la.. watch the madagascar movie.. so cute! whaha!! :) when buying tics.. yun hui told the guy:' i wan 3 ma ma ma tickets la'. wahahahahah!! she dun even know howta pronounce it!!! whaha!! damn funni! got ang moh laugh at her man!! whaha!! funni la! joker lo!

gym

2005-05-30T23:21:00.000-07:00

oh great! after running around cck and a gym session! whaha!! oh.. i feel more clumsy after that! whaha!! wenta eat at cck that romantic park with noi! coz onli the 2 TWO of us wenta run la.. whah.. the food there was quite nice.. quiet also.. nice place! whaha

first day of school was BORING! haha!! but i still feel that studying is better den working! waha!! i hate monday! coz havin mondae blues and the lesson is from 9 to 5! gosh! kills mi! cant stand it! oh.. i love my new tutor!! whaha!! finally a young and pretty lady become our class tutor! waited for a yr le!! okie... and i feel so tico now.. whaa!! and food court one got renovated! whah!! the stores are still the same aunties and uncles! food is still soooooo nice!! :D better surrounding.. gonna hang out there more often! yea! lessons was horrible! i couldnt understand economics? wat microeconomics and macroeconomics? damn it! and wat normative and postive!! i totally dun understand at all! HELP!!

oh.. i wanna lead a better life! with u..

worst!

2005-05-29T10:26:00.000-07:00

todae was my worst match in my whole entire bball life! damn it! sux totally! i'll still feel sad.. but there's realli nothing much i can do.. i feel so helpless.. and my parents will kill mi if they knew all along i've been playing the stupid ball! so i pass my jersey to hl to wash for mi! thanx lehz! realli xie xie ni!

but i got gain something.. i gain back the feeling of being nervous before match~ the most important is the happiness in bball.. there's realli no way to describe the way u hold the ball and throw them in a hole and it juz amazing went in! with a swift sound! whaha!! i miss bball like shit manz! i miss my times! and i'm so fair.. everyone laugh at mi! i dun like it! and i mean i realli dun like!

tml start school.. omg! i miss my 2 gays and 2 bitches! whaha.. and food court 1 stuff! shi gave mi a pen! hinting mi to study hard huhz! whah! thanx ar..

but thinking back! i still wanna play better and if there's no injuries for mi! the times i dare to do anithing in da court.. now i gotta think twice about every move b4 going in.. IT SUX TOTALLY! *prays no one injure mi!

tml!

2005-05-29T01:53:00.000-07:00

guys tml jia you okie! good luck to all of us! and hope i dun injure! *PRAYS*

there's no way the words that speaks out from ur mouth can be taken back.. that's inculde mine too.. so ya.. i speak all from the bottom of my heart! so is juz a matter of time to let u speak up to mi now.. there's no way we can turn back time..

the wound wouldnt juz heal by itself..

quote

2005-05-26T05:46:00.000-07:00

I will always love you, even when you leave me after the bruising goes away I hope that I can forgive you for what you have done.

hmz..

2005-05-25T22:44:00.000-07:00

went back to sch.. played with juniors.. ate the mee soto and magee that i love most! miss the times in sch with those bitches! it's been a awhile since i heard the train's noise running across my ears.. i miss those bitching daes! all the teachers have change.. and of coz mi too!! all my teachers say that i'm more mature now!! manz! whaha!! :) see!! i grew up! those sec sch training daes were my most memorable daes in my whole life.. i miss vicent hall upper court. and peeps! miss all!

oh ya!! peeps with touchy hands get ur fucking hand off her! i warn you! tmd!

2005-05-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

cute pic rite?! whah!! lolx!!

shi!

2005-05-22T01:41:00.000-07:00

woa!! happy birthdae shi!! wahaha!! lao le la! wenta her house to celebrate her bdae.. the actual ce;ebration is tml.. but i gotta work.. sooo cannot make it! happy brithdae lo! hehez! bought something sweet and nice for her.. and i bet she'll like it.. ahah!! lolx! shi!! see we all so good la! ehaha!! did nothing much! nowadaes feel so lost too.. no training no nothing.. been slacking! manz!! i cant hit my 4 digits!!! damn it! i spent it all!! :(

i gave u all my trust,
i told u i love you
when will u believe?

leave

2005-05-21T01:33:00.000-07:00

Tell me you love me when you leave
You're more than a shadow, that's what I believe
You take me to places I never dreamed I'd see
Minute by minute you are the world to me

CRIES

2005-05-21T01:18:00.000-07:00

DUN LEAVE PLS!! SORRY IS NOT THE WORD TO USE ANIMORE! IT SERVES NO PURPOSE! DUN LEAVE!!!!! *CRIES*

leave

2005-05-20T10:23:00.006-07:00

Tell me you love me when you leave
You're more than a shadow, that's what I believe
You take me to places I never dreamed I'd see
Minute by minute you are the world to me

sad..

2005-05-20T00:38:00.000-07:00

oh.. training was funni but worrying.. yun hui was so er xin! oh god! i never see anione so disgusting b4!! whaha!! and she got elephant skin!! wahaha!! lolx.. and i think i hit denise.. ops.. sorri la! dun mean it.. and ya forget to bring my warm up teeeee!!! *punch ya! good ar!! whaha!! sat gonna have a friendly match.. and i think i'm gonna be in deep trouble.. coz is vs home u.. haz.. i will try my best yea! hope will run smoothly! :D

tht will be meet u tml.. but whu knows?! cancel at the beri last min.. sadded.

2005-05-19T01:54:00.000-07:00

damn cute pic! we were watching the sunset.. but pengyu edit them into ghostly pic! whahah!! so funni!! cute!?

2005-05-18T03:18:00.000-07:00

kanna wack!!! i got a gl face lehz!

2005-05-18T03:17:00.000-07:00

hahah

2005-05-15T21:36:00.000-07:00

haz! guess wat we saw?! in da broad daelight?

sick!

2005-05-15T10:18:00.000-07:00

haz... uncle flu have come find mi again! lolx.. i think is coz of ytd's rain.. sick!!

wenta gardern hotel to celebrate mama's dae.. wasnt realli happy.. sick of quarreling all shitty stuffs la.. saw juniors over at taka.. stunt mi.. haha..

dun tell mi u are leaving.. pls.. i hate this..

poor mi..

2005-05-14T02:15:00.000-07:00

wat the hell!! i burn my fingers todae! is 2 fingers.. den now both of my fingers no hair!! damn it! damn pain la! suxers! argh! one bad thingy bout working in da kitchen..and a damn day! i quarel with my dad! i neber seen him for 6 daes? he call mi and i got a scolding la! think is my mum told him... den my freaking bro! damn him! haha.. i didnt punch him! i onli push him! lucky him! hmph! bad dae! haiz..

ytd.. wenta bbq with mac crews! woa! was a nice trip la.. ahaha.. thanx jun jie and irene. :) stay till 3? den thomas drove mi home.. hha... we went night walking? haha..!! lolx!! kinda late and dark over there.. but i was abit freak out.. it seems like and endless road that i was walking... and there this fuking arse hole! damn him! i was realli angry with him when he was so touchy to u.. and plus i could do nothing to stop him! coz i cant and i dun have the authority to! i feel like cutting of his fuking damn hand!! u better keep a dis from him pls! do mi and urself a favour.. pls.. i dun wanna to see that he's so easily to.. u are a clever gal.. i bet u understands wat i'm talking bout la.. and think twice about the bad news.. coz i dun think there's a need too.. if the bad news realli come true.. think our dis wil grew apart coz when we are working is already so diff to meet up.. wat if we are separated? is a blow for mi to take it.. think pls.. spare a tht for mi.. :)

i feel that i'm so buzy but it seems like the things i do are meaningless to mmi.. this are not the things i wan in my own world.. i also dunno wat i wan now..

training..

2005-05-13T00:45:00.000-07:00

hahah... training was tired!!! damn it!! now den i feel my leggies was damn HEAVY!!! hasha.. running with those 2 leggies will kill mi!! wahha!! den final 12 was out! i got number 15 AGAIN..whaha!! forever la.. but doent the number doesnt realli matters to mi.. juz as long as i play happily there.. den oh yea! i miss those peeps so much! with the combination of ytss peeps and aes! woa.. all juniors and mi seniors! whaha.. and we are not YUHUA!! ehhez.. we are.. er.. hah.. confirm le announce.. :) whaah.. i think i lose 2 kg?! mauhaha!! lolx!! yea.. contiune training i confirm will br fit back! and haha.. lolx.. alrite.. becca work hard!! oh.. and my back hurts after the training.. hope can pull thru youth cuppie! last yr! all out yea.. jia you!! my teamates!! i love ya guys!!!! i mean gals too... whah!!!

hair!

2005-05-11T00:40:00.000-07:00

oh... after my final decision... gonna CUT and dye it! muahah!! lolx! but still gonna keep my small little pony tail! whahaah!! i can tied my hair till small little bunch! whaha!! lolx! hmz.. okie.. oh.. yea.. haha!! oh.. i'll miss my long hair daes!! whah!!*geez* should i juz bleach it or dye red? hmz.. see what my hair stylist says..

tml is the 11/ 5!! whah!! finally chill time yea! babes! is time to come out noww!! haah.. and i'm goona start to have my nightmare.. training! oh.. hope everything goes well for mi!

i realli got no idea if i need to hang on..

i'm so looking forward to fridae!! mac outing! whah!! organised by jun jie!! whaha!! thanx ar! but the bad thingy was to sleep in tent!!! damn no sense of security!!wat if there's bangala? lolx.. maybe dun planning to stay there too!

oh.. and i miss barlow playing bball!!! whaha!! i wanna see him dunk!! suave!

damn!

2005-05-10T00:08:00.000-07:00

i'm damn pissed with those freaking customers with those fuking attutide problems! wah lao! i also earn for a living one lehz! dun think u can use ur money and press on mi! fuk manz!

after todae's lesson.. i finally realised the more important part of money!

is time for training.. and i'm so scare to hear that! freak out! haha.. coz is like donkey yrs ago since i've played! whaha!! lolx.. and i dun think i can catch up within juz a few weeks.. maybe is time for mi to end my bball with slience.. :) but i think i wun regret once being a bballer! whah!!

faints

2005-05-08T20:32:00.000-07:00

WHAHA!!! i got signature from Bateer, BJ Carter, Luke Martin and most importantly i got BARLOW'S on my shoe!!!!! muahah!! and i took 2 pics of him!! oh mine god! whaha!! and i got a hug from him too!!!! *faintz* whaha!!! so darn happy!! denise go crazie with mi with those aussie guys la! muahah!!! lolx.. they realli look awsome! manz! and after the match i went to the bus and i got a hug and king's warm up tee from Luke Martin!!!!! whaha!!!! damn it! whah!! he's damn cool and suave!! manz! whaah!!! oh manz!! those guys make mi meltz!! i swear they are damn good!! muahaha!!