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you're my song.

it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so ~~how~~ can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

and the reasonis you.

Name~ Becca
Age~ going 19
Dob~ 22.9.87
School~ svps.aes.jjc.sp
Fav song~ Never be Replace
Location~ CCK
Loves~ all my frends!! my family too!! my buddies! nua-ing partners~!!

Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

but everythingmeans nothing.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

we both are facing the same problem. time management. :( sigh. we are separating for 2 weeks. that wat's she needs to think thru whether we should cont to go on. i feel that she no longer love mi. i have a talk with her ytd. she didnt even give mi her 100% attention. i'm sad. so sad. the worst part is she say that i'm no longer involved in her life. when she tell mi this. i couldnt sleep for the nite. i cried. my tears kept falling. i cant control it at all!!! my heart aches. it realli does. i know the feeling of losing my loved! i realised how difficult for mi to let go of you. this 2 years, time shows my love for ya. i know i cant give u as much as u demand, but i've tried my best to accomdate watever u wan, watever u need. our path leads to different ways and different destination. we got no more aims for us to aim together.

At first when we started on the day of 17/06/05, everyone dosent approve as at first.but i've proved them wrong 2 years! but this is not the important point. i wan to be together with ya is not to proved them wrong. but to proved my love for you. we got no 3rd parties to involved. so i've been faithful all these while. Not even once i've been out of track. coz i've been loving you deeply this 2 years. but what have i gotten now? happy memories? ya. i do treasure our memories. all the sad and happy ones. but i wan more of it. i've been missing ya since u have been busy in jc. u realli got no time for mi. u rather to go out with ya frends. not mi. i wanted to share happy times with u. but u rejected again and again. i feel disappointed. but ALL of this i can accept. i dun mind! coz i realli cant imagine my life without you. a horrible life will be rite ahead waiting for mi to explore on my own. i dunno if i can handle it on my own. i need u to share with mi. i need u.. i do.

but does this seems late? i hope not. i hope i still have the chance to hold ya hand. hug ya. kisses ya forehead. and not forgetting to take lots of neoprint with ya. i'm afraid i dun feel the warmth from ya animore! i'm scared. i still have a lot to tell you. i wanna share! i need the chance.

this 2 weeks. will be terrible for mi to go thru. i dunno wat ya decision will be in the end. but seriously, i'll wait for you. no matter wat. U are the best GF in the world! if we realli ends here. thanx you for everything. Everything single things. i appreciate it. from the bottom of my heart.

ps: I love you. i missed ya. i need ya.

all i need is one more chance.

if i ain't got you|6:27 AM

Thursday, June 07, 2007

i've been thinking alot these days. i knew our distance grew further apart. something is not rite. we both know. but somehow both of us are not doing anything bout it. i really feel terrible about it. does she knows wat i'm talking or refering too? i bet she doesnt!!! coz she long thinks that mine blog is dead. this coming 17th june 2007 will be our 2 yr aniversary. cool? i also dunno how we go thru everthing. but i think i'm selfless. i need to be more self centered to protect myself. all along i think i've been giving in too much too her! TOO MUCH!!! she has already from the start climb to my head! i juz need a blog to vent my anger out and i'll feel better... i juz know i dun wanna end this relationship. but i really find no point. i think she got her own life now. her frends, family, studies are all her first piorities! i know i'm the last now. i know. so in order not to sink in any more wat muz i do now? HOW? choice one - continue our relation? choice two - break up and live better?i dun even know will i able to leave her. sigh.

and work sux i really hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i ain't got you|8:43 AM

wherever youwill go.

I wanna make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh,all i wanna do, is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice, growin' old with you.
I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you...

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Life is full of lots of up and downs
But the distance feels further
When it's headed for the ground
And there's nothing more painful
Then to let your feelings take
you down

It's so hard to know
When there's many thoughts
And feelings that you hide
But you might feel better
If you let me walk with you
By your side
And when you need
A shoulder to cry on
When you need
A friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone
I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be your friend to rely on
When the whole world's gone
You won't be alone 'cause I'll be there

All of the times
When everything is wrong
And your feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I'll help you work it out
And carry on

Side by side
With you till the end
I'll always be the one
A Shoulder To Cry On Continued

To firmly hold your hand
No matter what is said or done
Our love will always continue on

i'm crazyfor you.

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl
that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come
where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be
aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

Tell me you love me when you leave
You're more than a shadow, that's what I believe
You take me to places I never dreamed I'd see
Minute by minute you are the world to me
I wish I could frame the look in your eyes
The way that for you inside
And if tomorrow brings a lonely day
Here and now i know I haven't lived in vain
I'll cry my tears in the rain and if love never comes again
I can always say I've been to paradise skies in your eyes in your eyes
So tell me you love me the moment you leave
You're more than a shadow, I've just to believe
I wish I could keep you all of my life
The way that I feel for you inside
This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you
This is what God meant
This is my perfect moment with you
I wish I could freeze this space in time
The way I feel for you inside

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